Sore Joints and Muscle Aches Diary Day 3

My Joints all Ache and my muscles feel week damn you Low Testosterone !

Upon waking today I discover that All my joints Ache and seem to click a lot more. I sound as though I am made of matchsticks. I guess that adds a new meaning to the old ‘body popping’ eh. I have to mention though that I knew all along this would happen AGAIN. The curse of suffering from Low Testosterone strikes again. Even though my body was never truly happy being on TRT. My body is definitely complaining now.  I can now imagine how Tin man felt from Gone with the Wind. Just dying for a good lube! Typing this out is in itself bloody testing..

I have to keep in mind though that we all have good days and bad days while stopping TRT. Most likely a plethora of bad days at the start of this. I am hoping that it gets better.

I am fearing taking my weekly dose of Cabergoline now. My sleeping patterns have become quite disturbed.

Lack of quality Sleep while I am Low on Testosterone.

Seems to me that my quality of sleep over the last year or so i.e. those years I was suffering from Low T without being treated and the year where I was being treated (just not very well imho) I never really ever got a good night of restful sleep.

Honestly folks, I look back on all those nights when I used to go to bed in good health and going to bedjust used to be fantastic. Great relief even when my head just touched the pillow and those long gone glory days waking feeling refreshed. Now it just seems to fill a few hours with restless tossing and turning. Especially since starting on the Cabergoline. That in itself I feel is responsible for actually giving me anxiety about going to sleep.

I envy my children, I love them to bits. When I go to bed I check on them and just pause for a moment and I watch them sleeping all innocent and peaceful. I know that is probably not how I appear when sleeping.  Most likely dribbling and snoring and turning over and just generally being not at rest.

I have again occasionally been using Atarax, aka hydroxyzine hydrochloride. It’s an anti histamine that helps with anxiety and sleep. Sometimes it’s an absolute godsend. As much as I hate using drugs I have realised that sometimes you have just got to help yourself get a good nights sleep.

But despite all this, I am feeling positive about making it this far. Let’s see how sore my joints feel tomorrow..